Well, it's done. I gave JD my letters and now there's no turning back. Either he'll be willing to engage in a real relationship with emotions and consideration or he won't.

My head is throbbing and my heart hurts so bad that I want to scream. I've been like this for days, crying at the drop of a hat because of the pain and I don't know how to make it stop.

All I really want is for him to say, "Yes, I care about you. Yes, you are important to me. Yes, your feelings matter."
I don't think that's too much to ask.